Again, I dropped into this dream in an instant. I was in a large empty space, facing two doorways in front of me. Each frame was outlined with a bright white rim, and instead of doors, the entry points were shielded with a thick layer of clear mesh. I couldn’t see beyond it, it was like looking at static on a tv screen.
I stepped one foot through the doorway on the left, and left the other half of myself anchored outside. The world I saw in front of me resembled the one we live in now. Except, the air was full of smog, and gave a gray tint to the city and the people. Crowds of people moved forward, engaged in manual labor. Their clothes and faces were smeared with this dark dirt or oil, and their bodies were hunched towards the floor as if they lacked the strength to overcome gravity. Nobody made eye contact, nobody spoke, or smiled, or sang. They just kept moving forward like hamsters on a wheel. I thought of the people I loved, my friends, and family all lost in this twisting and turning maze that led to nowhere. I felt the heaviness of this space, and knew I couldn’t stay here, not even to look for them.
I felt relief in returning back to the empty space. I felt like me again, despite the sadness I had just seen.
I stepped cautiously through the next door, not knowing what to expect. This one is harder to describe. I saw endless green hills, covered in patches of flowers and trees of different colors. Some were purple and orange, with long branches or fluffy leaves. I could feel the brightness of the colors vibrating through my skin. The sky was bright pink streaked with yellow rays from the sun. Everything was illuminated and hazy, and the people were scattered everywhere, just resting and laughing together. Instantly, I was tingling with warmth and love. My whole being felt light, and I laughed. This choice was easy.
I was kicked back out into the space and woke up in my room. It was 5am and the sun was rising into the new day. My room was flooded with the pink and orange light that filled the sky. And I smiled and thought, “I made it. I am here.”
