Nexus Point

I’m back at this place I know, I’ve been here before in other dreams. It’s a brick building that looks like a medical complex, but it’s placed in the middle of a residential neighborhood. It’s surely a blend of several places I’ve seen before, but I can’t identify any part of it.

What is this place? I ask myself.

“It’s a nexus point.” I hear immediately, in a very matter-of-fact response.

I watch as I move forward with my life, as if through a tunnel. As the days go by I meet new people and make new choices, veering this path one way or another. Each tiny action branches off into a potential new route, down to my choice of words, my work, hobbies, and relationships. At a certain point It ends.

Then I’m back at the beginning, back at the complex. I’ve seen the outcomes I don’t want and I can chose differently. I do just that and travel a little further down the trail to my greatest life path.

Shit! I hit another road black, and I start again. I get on one path that I know is so utterly misaligned that I just laugh and hit the reset button. "Nope! not trying to fix this." I say to myself.

I do this over and over, making significant progress each time. On one trail I find my truest love, on another I find how to leave my mark on the world. Each timeline unravels before me with different gifts, and slowly I find where to obtain them all. 

I stand back and look at this map I’ve created around me, all originating from this point. A neon blue light connects them like a web, and everything is at a stand still. Not only can I see the paths, I can see the people. I tap on an image of a man I’ve recently dated, and I can see how a particularly choice I made affected him in that moment, and from that I see his web branching out, and how that experienced pulsed him forward into his own new potential realities.  It’s like I’m playing with an interactive map. 

From my view I can see the intricate web of human connection. I can see the expanse of it all, and the ripple effects that stem from every single moment. It is delicate, and messy, and beautiful.

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I woke up with a new sense of awareness in how impactful my thoughts and actions are for my future and for the people around me, even the smallest, seemingly insignificant actions. I also woke up with this nagging thought of…”how many times are you going to loop back around before you get it right??” I have no idea, to be honest. But that path, the one where everything comes together, where I truly am my best self and have it all, it exists. And that's what I do know.