Future Man

(I wrote this to myself in 2021 as a reminder of what is out there, and of what I deserve. I honestly don't even remember writing this.)

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One day I will meet a man who sees me, who hears me, who knows me in his heart, and chooses me. A man who knows himself and is loyal to his truth. Who knows what he wants and what he is capable of. A man who trusts me with his heart, with his thoughts, and with his future.  A man who who leads and protects me, who is soft with me and leans into me when he is low. A man who shares his thoughts, his dreams, his emotions, knowing that they are safe with me. One day I will meet a man who feels my light like he feels my body. Who trusts me to bear him life. Who wants to see his essence merged with mine.

One day I will meet a man who I surrender to with my body, my mind, and my spirit. Whom I reveal myself to completely, from whom I can not hide and do not want to. A man I hold space for and fully receive. A man I pour my all into. A man I will follow through darkness and light, over space and over time. A man I feel safe with, even from myself. 

If he loves you, he will tell you and he will show you. You will know. If you’re confused about if he loves you it’s because he doesn’t. Silence is just as much of an answer as words. Not choosing is also a choice.