Lighthouse

This dream was all of about a 2 minute experience. But it’s power is irrelevant to it’s measurement in linear time. Honestly, the expression of these words feels like a limitation to what I truly felt, I’ve never experienced anything quite like it.

Coming into this dream was like waking up in a new space. I was surrounded in white as if I was stuck inside a floating cloud. There was no horizon beyond me, and no apparent beginning or end to where I was. But I didn’t feel lost, or scared or nervous. Actually, all my attention was in the weight of my arms. I rested a chunky little baby on my left hip. I could count the rolls on its legs and arms, and saw the thin black hair fluttering over its eyes (i think it was a girl). She looked about 9 months old, and was heavy. 

Immediately, I saw Abran. He walked up towards me, appearing from nowhere and nothing. He felt tall to me, like a large presence in this space. He had one hand free, and his other latched onto the girls, who formed a chain behind him. A smile started to grow on his face like it always does. It’s this little smirk he has that widens until his whole face is engaged and radiating joy. Like it’s shooting from the lines around his squinted eyes and vibrating through his teeth. His whole face just glows and it’s like a wave of warmth falls on you. It’s the first thing I ever noticed about him, and why I couldn't look away.

We lock eyes as he raises his free hand. We don’t speak, and I don’t move, I just watch. His hand comes from above and lands softy on my head. As soon as his fingers graze my hair, I feel everything shift inside of me. It’s like a wave of slowly dripping heat is pouring out of his hands and hitting each molecule in my body. One by one I feel it touch my head, then face, then back, each area exploding in an orgasmic sensation. In a wave, my body releases a ray of light that beams out into the space around me in until I can see a full colorful spectrum in this once white space. I thought I was having a full body orgasm at first, but it was different. It was happening on a cellular level, and it continued throughout my body until every part of me was filled with euphoria, and I was floating. The pleasure was all consuming, and this golden light reflected to me with the intensity of the sun. I couldn’t sustain it, my physical body could not handle it, so I woke up, fully alert and lying beside him.